hmmm...ok...so i was wrong...i din sign/not sign tt stupid contract at all...din even get to see it...
me n me parents are going down tmr...TMR will be the DAY!
hahahahahhaha
now im a gay boy????!?!??!
What Type Of Anime Character Are You? brought to you by Quizilla You're A Yaoi Boi (Gay Boy)! Sensitive and caring, you just want some boyXboy love! Is that too much to ask?
:_(
juz goes to show how inaccurate these quizzes are....
here i go again...ive been asking practically everyone and anyone the same irritating question over and over again...
C or Y??? i cant choose! the decision wld seriously affect my future..i want to make the best and most suitable decision for my future...each has its own set of gd points and each has itz own good stuff i can make use and exploit to better my chances of getting into a university and to get into the course i want...damn...my gosh.....i really dun want to make the wrong mistake,...
but once i mak the decision i mustnt look bacK!!!(something i am very prone to doing...)
ah...time is running out...by tmr i wld have signed/not sign a contract that bonds me to C...and leaving me in the crutches of the very menacing bro paul...
special note to jo:all the best for thurs and friday...u can do it...just pop more "i love u" sweets hee..
ok...be4 i go....i must ask u this question that has been bugging forever...C or Y????
today i underestimated the simple act of holding hands...(with sumone special of cuz hee...not sum tom dick or harry...or mary liza or jane for our male counterparts...)
Earlier on i was watching this show...the female lead was having the most realistic nightmare..of cuz at the climax of her nightmare(eg pointing a gun at a loved one,losing ur grip and falling off a huge cliff...u get the idea...)she wakes up gasping fir air.. jerking up frm her bed and immediately someone grabs her hand and keeps it in a firm embrace...she looks up and found herself looking directly into her lover's(male lead) reassuring eyes...and in the most smoothing voice he whispered "dun worry...im here"
i had a similar experience today..although it wasnt as dramatic but the effect was as powerful if not more...
something was really bothering me and i had all sorts of negative feelings(scared,irritated,confused,lost,alone,afriad,blahblah...my male lead was all along walking beside me in silence but i dun think he cld feel exactly what i was feeling or what was going thru my head (unless he has super powers or sum sort..no one cld have known) And when we were gona cross the overhead brigde...his hand just slip behind mine and fingers interlocked...at that instant this feeling of relief just came over me...automatically,i just smiled a small smile to myself...that gesture made me feel like im not alone...no words were needed i just felt a little calmer...
thanks jo..erhm...i mean male lead hee :)
ok itz 9 days to my chinese ao
...and once again i find myself infront of my com..typing away..(actually mst of my online time is spent clicking away..feeling real lz in recent days even pushing those little cube-ish blocks of letters seem tedious to me..)
if i carry on like this (which i most probably will) i can forget abt getting free periods next yr and i can kiss my final farewell to studying chinese gdbye...(hm weird sentence did i juz use farewell n gdbye?dun they mean the same thing?yep they do..so whats ya pt?get back to ur blog)...and ill have to retake chinese again! i use the word again cuz i did tt in sec4...been there done that..yawn cld we move on to CLb?
damn..this reminds me of *FLASHBACK TO SEC4...*
we were all gathering in the hall...all the sec4/5 were in their classes...in unorganised messy blopps of grp...
sec4E was in one of the corners(i think) all seated comfortably ard our chinese teacher...next to us...was another blop of sec4gurls...frm 4A...and one of the gurls was reading out the grades one by one..."XYZ u got an A1...ABC, u got an A2..."aft reciving their results, each ..wld exclaim in delight/jump in the air/hug a friend/cry...
there i was looking at them...in envy?i duno...but i sure wish i wld be exclaiming in delight/jumping in the air/hugging my friend/crying when i get mine..ok...so my teacher read sec4E's results out one by one..i was pretty confident..i mean all i wanted was a B3....when she called my name,in my head i was chanting B3 B3 B3...den i heard...B4!!!!
.......................in the end i only got to hug my friends and cry...
here's story two
brief history:abt our very 1st meeting :)
Walking out of her room she involuntarliy got a glance of herself in the mirror..."damn what am i wearing???" she screamed to herself as she viewed her own attire with merciless critism......a pink sleveeless top...paired with a a white flora skirt...with a single pink pin in her hair....what is he gona think of me??? some feimine shit? some guys like those sporty girls who would rather die than wear a skirt besides their sch U...plus he's such a sport guy...plays tennis...ah...wad i wld give to see him play...bet he'll look so cool...!!! damn..got carried away...is he gona think im not sporty enuff for him?n im not tt feminine either...
Taking in a huge breath, she firmly marched out of her room and onto the street outside..."got to get to jingmei's hse...n get her opinion on this outfit...ill go crazy if i look at myself sumore..."
Upon entering jingmei hse...she found jingmei on a red plastic chair(those commonly sighted at coffee shops) and her jingmei's older sister applying all sorts of cream foundation lipstick gloss eyeshadow n all this shit on to jingmei's face...
"oh kat,im so glad ure here...what my sis to help u?"....
*what? n make me look like sum wayang actress crossed with a prositute? no thanks!...*
"erhm......" kat said helplessly as jingmei's older sista looked at her from head to toe...as if seeing if kat passed the grade anot...she half expected her to sae "THIS ONE NO HOPE EVEN I CANT SAVE HER"
"no thanks...i think i prefer remaining as plain jane..."
"ok what ever suit urself"
she was surprised to find herself heaving a sigh of relief as jingmei' sista finally stopped staring at her....
*AFTER WHAT SEEMED LIKE AN ETERNITY*....
"ok kat im done!....see aint i preeeeettttttyyyyy?"
she looked up to find her best friend covered in all sorts of....erhm..stuff...now jingmei's body looked like it belonged to someone else...er face was so white n her body tanned..she looked like someone chopped of her head and place it on a indian (no offense..a 100% non-racist remark..the author is a lover of all races reliogion n what have u on this planet..k,now that we got all that cleared up...let's continue with the story)
here's story one...
brief history:this is abt our 1st valentines day...as a non-couple
"Many years ago a young man, who was totally clueless about girls, He bought a HUGEEEE poOh bear for this girl whom he really liked. Once he bought it he knew he couldn't go wrong...with such a cute thing on his hands no girl could say no. With much anticipation he waited for her....the hours ticked by...the girl was late (as usual)...suddenly the wait was over...there she was...looking all shy and awkward...he walked towards her holding pooh in his hands...she seemed to not notice pooh with his bright yellow fur and tiny shirt...she was hiding....thru out the whole day the girl din talk much...no one said anything about Pooh bear...as the day wore on...the young man could feel his heart ache...how could she ignore my present? I saved esp. for her....finally it was time to go home...the girl boarded the bus...not even taking pooh with her....the young man remained still...thru inside his heart was literally breaking....he passed it to his friend to managed to give it to the girl just be4 the bus left....
the girl was feeling horrible...she didn't want the young man to give her such an big n expensive looking poohbear...it wasn't one of those passar malam shit...it was those Disney shit...she sat on the upper-deck of the bus...looking at poohbear beside her...
she decided she would return it to him the next time she saw him...too much of an expensive gift to accept...but...the more she looked...the more she was taken in by its happy face...cheerful grin....yellow fur...which looked so soft...she couldn't hold it back any longer...she reached out her hand to touch pooh....
ah such softness...she din quite expect it...holding pooh closer she cuddled it...ah...immediately made-up images of her cuddling the young man appeared...shocked and red-faced she put poohbear down....
quietly...she thought to herself....could he be as soft?.......
ok...im gonna post some stories here..me dear jo inspired me to write haa...to put on the webby he made for us :)
itz kinda halfway...got loads more to come haa
:)
im so happy
haa...my jo is the sweetest...the webby he made is so cutee...and it makes me laugh too~ his drawings no difference from those done by little kindergarden kids hee...i really like it jo! haa esp the bee that looks like a bird haa...geee..looking at the webby just make me smile...thanks jo...
why is it my parents show no sense of responsibility towards the tasks they set each other to do?
its horrible to see or hear them nag at each other to get the chores done.Just 10minutes ago i ended up hanging the clothes my father was supposed to hang hours ago.Now the clothes have a funny smell...
why?!?!
damn...my dad just called me to boil water for him....if tmr he asks me to fetch his newspapers,he will by then successfully acquired the position of CEO of the you-do-what-i-tell-you-to-do-no-BUTS-you-are-my-slave company...
ok..wad day is it?sunday..damn sch tmr...not looking forward to it at all...although itz only 2 more weeks of sch be4 we all break off for the hols(hence begins the serious mugging for chinese) i still totally dread school...
hai..im not gonna give a shit abt how u actually work this thing...juz gonna treat it like my diary..
anyway todae was a non-sch day...apparently cj has itz graduation for the j2s todae n no sch for the j1s...
so i slept in...but got disturbed by chris...we ended up "studying" at my study...doing what girls do best ...talk....
on the topic of JCz...hai...i have decided to shine~ at yj next yr...i have no choice actually...i wan to do my best and get into uni and get a gd job to support my parents...i noe making it to the uni and graduating doesn't get u a job but it sure beats NOT having a degree to back u up...i honestly hope i can do what i like in the future and earn big bucks at the same time...isn't that what everybody wants?
one degree course at ntu called communication studies interests me...maybe ill go check it out some more...i think i work bt=etter and harder with a goal in mind...
ltr in the day met up with jo..haa 1st time seeing his botak head...i prepared myself mentally in case i freak out at the sight of him...
surprisingly i didn't...cuz he did look quite gd...cool actually...like those funky bald men on the streets...suddenly kinda admire pple who shave botak...got guts...and if they manage to look gd with not a single strand of hair on their head it wld certainly prove that they are above average-looking...hee...like my jo...but can't tell him this or his head ,which is very prone to swelling,wld probably blow up hee...
anyway i found out that every time i go out with jo i always get pissed becuz of something...n that something is usually very small...
hai,........
anyway i must constantly remind myself of the 2 promises
1:be more decisive
2:don't procastinate...
