Decisions, decisions....I for one am not very gd at it.
Having landed me up where i am today.
Life brings an individual choices. Choices of varying degrees of importance and the consequences that follow, impact upon one's life in ways that are known only to the unknown future.
As a child, I have learnt many lessons from making the "wrong/bad" choices. Many of which were initiated by my mum, whose rhetorical powers was at its peak as my mind was at its most gullible.
*Standing on my tippy toes, i stood beside my mum behind the kitchen counter. She was making coffee for my dad and i was memerised by the steam rising frm the mug, itching to play with the coffee power and the hot water.
"mummy,can i make coffee for u?" (my opportunistic nature kicked off early in my life, seizing this chance to play with the magical steam)
"cannot la! u can pour cold water for mummy. BUT u cannot touch the hot water okay? Whatever you do, dun touch the hot kettle! Remember ah, no touching of the kettle!" she shouted as she left the kitchen.
My distracted brain suffered from an information overload and my little mind started filtering out words. Words of wisdom from my mum ended up as "touch the hot kettle!" The words lingered in my head, enticing me to touch the steam, to just reach out and place my hand on the silvery pot on the stove. Finally, with a great air of decisiveness, i reached out with my short arm and grabbed the kettle.
Immediately i made a reflex jump backwards that would have made record holders of standing board jump stare in awe. I stood there, waving frantically as if to put out a fire on my hands. Needless to say, i brawled like a baby. *
As you get older, decisions gets harder and harder to make. Indecisiveness is suffered by many i know. Advice from folks, peers and perhaps even the rebellious streak in you confuses your mind and blurs your initial intention.
Afraid to make a mistake, people hesistate and avoid situations where major decisions are neccessary. And when they do decide, they tend to follow the crowd, to tread the path that many has taken.
A "bad/wrong" choice might result in a mistake but it doesnt make your whole life a mistake. Sometimes all we need to do is ease up alittle and make that leap of faith. Take the road less travelled.
In retrospect, i have made it to this very day, at the impressive age of 17yrs and 7mths, without so much as grabbing a hot steaming kettle with my bare hands.
Challenges, in the most fearful form known to mankind, particularly targetting the student population of this small Asian country has invaded my slackerised school days. Next week commences the mass assessment of the size and prowess of the brain.
my common tests are here! argh.
I can do it.
I can do it.
I can do it because i say i can.
oh yea. bring it on
Following this entry will hopefully be one where i will be gloating and exhibiting my excellent results heh.
*keep ur fingers crosses for this girl who has been guilty of sloth.*
Stopping outside far east plaza, daniel reached for his handphone and typed furiously :
"where are you guys? im here liao. teacher let me off early.going where for lunch?"
Alone and with nothing to kill but time, he headed into the air-conditioned levelONE@fareast.With most of the shops still closed,he sat down, observing the blond-haired ah lian trying to squeeze the female manequin into a tiny tube top. Happy that he found some form of entertainment, he whipped out his nokia3650 and wanted cheekily to snap photos of the clumsly sales girl fumbling with the manequin. *SMS TONE*
"here liao. ay,claire bought a friend for you. she's a babe! will intro to u. make full use of this opportunity ah! see you @ scotts food court and turn on ur charm to the maximum yea?dun screw this up"
what the @#$% stupid terence.trust him to come up with such stuff. Daniel cursed as he recalled the last time terence introduced a "babe" to him. After that eventful blinddate,daniel was sure he was tramatized and till this day, he would look over shoulder avoiding a certain female who he highly suspected to be a close relative of the big-nostrils creatures swimming in the zoo.
**why the hell do i need dickhead terence to intro babes to me?! Ive got plenty babelicous friends and pretty girls to boot! Terence is seriously underestimating my gift of attracting the gurls **
"eh dan! over here!"
Spotting terence and terence's gf, claire, daniel walked over swiftly with long strides.
"dan,i would like you to meet marie."
Daniel turned and for the first time in his life,he was speechless. For a guy who was pretty damn articulate, that is a really big deal. Marie stood there, radiating sweetness with her rosy cheeks and demure smile. She extended her hand with grace and poise and daniel stood there memerized by her very existence.
Taking her soft hand in his, he felt it. Deep inside his heart something jolted. This was it. He knew it.
she is the one.
"claire? hi...erhm....daniel left me. for another woman...."
"what? what about the kids?"
"they're asleep...i don't know how to tell them that their daddy's no longer gonna be around."
"oh marie...he doesnt deserve you..."
"after 12 years! 12years with that man and one day he just leaves....."
Time can change anything.. (heey. just compare John Travolta in Grease and him in face/off.) Married couples are no exception. Are marriage vows strong enough to keep a two people together?
Gone are the sweet nothings, quicken heartbeats, sweaty palms and the mere presence of each other envokes feelings of sweet intoxicaton.
In its place are deadlines to meet, getting insurance, paying the bills, hiring a tutors for the kids and the mere sight of the toilet seat up envokes feelings of irritation.
Are marriages doomed for the inevitable evolution? Where practical matters overlay. And all the love is abandoned and taking its place are petty agruments and frustration.
hmmmm....just thoughts abt life-long partnership and honing my story-telling skills (or the lack thereof) hehe
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